The Circle of Life.

Anyone could tell me why is this so true?

Strangers become friends. Friends become lovers. Lovers become exs. Exs become strangers again.

I fully believe in this circle of life. But the exs that became strangers can hardly pass the 'becoming-friends-again' phase. It took us like a year to act normal again. Well actually it's been a year and it's still not really normal yet. There are still awkward things going between us. If I may say the hardest part so far to act normal to each other is to stop talking 'aku-kamu' *hell yeah :))* due the fact that he already has a girlfriend again.

Well at first I thought things were going to change instantly when my ex finally got a new girlfriend, but it was NOT easy. Things even got more awkward. It was like we've never known each other before. I can say that it was the worst part of break up; the 'recovery' phase. When you two no longer love each other and have been sincere to let things go, but the circumstance doesn't let you act normal. It was not the sweet memories he left, it was the awkwardness you got when he had problems that he would not share with you anymore. What hurts was to adapt with things that used to happen daily which will not happen again. We all love being special, and being replaced by someone new makes us feel beaten.

The recovery phase is like, the most hell-like phase ever in life. I honestly think that the fighting phase is much better than this; you've got anger to release, which feels good anyway! In this phase there's no more feeling left. No more love, but there is still jealousy over here and over there. You've got unwarranted prestige that make things worse. You don't talk to each other. You still miss the daily activities, you are still tortured with the adaptation. No matter how suck this phase does, you know you've got tons to learn from this :)

Now I can happily say that the awkwardness between me and him is fading away.

We're both in love again, with different people. :)

It feels nice.

For whoever experiencing this now, just let it be. Life's a bitch, but you don't just die. Life's a bitch, then you learn, enjoy it, and die. That's how we roll.

P.S: Happy 3rd month anniversary M. Gian Giffar & Evita Nur Indahsari! I'm wishing you both an everlasting happiness and laughter :)